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Worse For Wear
03:45
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I have spent enough of my life living in enmity
This spiral of rage hauling my soul to the black
I carry this load on my shoulders
It's crushing me
Spare me the anguish
Spare me the agony
Rise from the flames
Deliver me from the smolder
Free from the pain
Carry my soul back to the light
The chains that I wore
I had locked in my own wrists
A product of my own delusion
My perception of happiness
Branded by selfishness
Strengthening the bars on my self-loathing cage
"They don't care" I lied to myself
"Worse for wear" was the title I claimed
How can I be rid of this affliction of hatred I've created?
Deliver me from my own warfare
Shield me from this self-inflicted rage
All I have made
Comes to an end
As I purge this filth from my veins
Tear down this wall
Destroy it all
Father save me from my dismay
Rise from the flames
Deliver me from the smolder
Free from the pain
Carry me heart back to the light
Deliver me from my own warfare
Shield me from this self inflicted rage
No amount of war, blood, or tears
Will ever bring me to hate
Ever again
"Worse for wear" never again
I will die for love before living in hate
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Iéri
03:42
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Recollecting all the damage dealt
I long to reopen the scars and regret it with every bone in my body
The voices, they're calling me back
Back into the dark I know so well
Turn back time, take control
I stand here static
Eyes locked on the only time and space that I truly know
What’s all around me
It’s fading quickly as the day turns to night
Be consumed
Dwell in me
May you never rest
May you never sleep
Take it all in
Every morning I wake
I'm back in yesterday
All the progress I've made has been erased
It's so easy to stay
In a world stuck on replay
But I will find strength to say
I'm done with yesterday
My knees are buckling
What is this pain I feel?
Am I letting go?
Or am I giving in?
My hands are reaching out
Is this the end I see
They’re getting louder
Silence the voices
Is there someone out there?
Give me the sight to what's around me
Every morning I wake
I'm back in yesterday
All the progress I've made has been erased
It's so easy to stay
In a world stuck on replay
But I will find strength to say
I'm done with yesterday
I stand here static
Eyes locked on the only time and space I truly know
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Regards
03:20
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It pains my heart to think that you haven't moved on
I thought that everything we've been through gave you a will to be strong
It's no wonder my love is all that you wish
You wear the past like scales over your eyelids
I can't be the person that you want me to be
You were never the person I thought you would turn out to be
This isn't how I wanted to say it
If you want the truth I swear that you’re going to get it
This isn't how I wanted to say it
I'm only happy when I'm not with you
These thoughts can be so hard to translate
So forgive me if my words get lost along the way
You broke my trust
And I've said goodbye enough times for the both of us
I wish you well
I wish you well
Looking back this isn’t how I wanted us to be
I wish you well
I wish you well
I never meant to be your enemy
Never meant to be your enemy
Don't come searching for the person that I used to be
Now it's clear to see
I'm better off without you
You're better off without me
You will get over this heart ache
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4. |
Contradiction
04:44
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This is a contradiction
All the words you are saying
We all know you are faking it
So is it fact or just fiction?
I've heard you talk about changing
All I see is more waiting
I know you are better than this
So tell me you're the same person
I know you are better than this
As you are behind the curtains
I know you are better than this
This isn't who you are
I can see past your scars
You've broken trust, my friend
But I won't let you fail again
I can’t watch you wander without meaning
You’ve broken trust, my friend
But I won’t let you fail again
You tell yourself that tomorrow you'll be different
But you're not taking the steps to move closer
Don't turn away the grace you've been given
Every breath is a chance to start over
You're living a lie
This is a contradiction
This isn't who you are
I can see past your scars
You've broken trust, my friend
But I won't let you fail again
I can’t watch you wander without meaning
You’ve broken trust, my friend
But I won’t let you fail again
Now is the time to live this out
When was the last time that you felt proud
Now is the time to end this pain
You can't stay here forever
You must make a change
You tell yourself that tomorrow you'll be different
But you're not taking the steps to move closer
Don't turn away the grace
You've been given
Every breath is a chance to start over
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Damaged
03:58
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We're all damaged
No one is left without scars
We're all beaten and bruised
At the root it's who we are
Everybody has a darkness to hide
But the deepest wounds are only healed in the light
We're all damaged
From the moment conceived
No it's not by our choice
It's in the blood that we bleed
Everybody has a darkness to hide
But the deepest wounds are only healed in the light
Everyday you stitch yourself together
Threading the needle in and out of your flesh
You mask all the sins that won't stop bleeding
So I cannot see your body stained with red
You live your life with your faith in the stitches
Perfecting the art of letting no one else see
What you become when your wounds are opened
And your sin reveals what's underneath
The very thing you thought would heal you has now infected your life
You and I both know that these stitches will not last forever
Hiding them until you rip apart isn’t any better
Expose the unseen
Bring it to the light
I can see who you really are
Don't be ashamed
You're not alone
Just open up your eyes
And realize that we're all damaged
I will open my wounds
If you open your wounds
Will you listen when I say
That I am exactly like you
I will show you my blood
So won't you show me your blood
Pull the stitches and you'll see I am no judge
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Azi
04:19
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Crawling out of the constant unrest while the dirt filled my lungs
I dared not look back in fear I might regress into the former, into the black
The mass is clearing into a new sight
I can't help but resist to change
Will I stand and win this fight?
Will I stand
Win this fight
Something is pulling me up
This is not my doing
Have I received death’s cup
Or is it the control I'm losing?
This is not my doing
I've lost all control of it all
Crawling out of the constant unrest while the dirt filled my lungs
I dared not look back in fear I might regress into the former, into the black
The mass is clearing into a new sight
I can't help but resist to change
Will I stand and win this fight?
This is not the end
I'm just getting started
Set in motion and my body departed
I survey who I was and count it as garbage
Will I stand and win this fight
Or will I look back as my heart turns to stone
And allow my spirit to be overthrown?
I’ve taken on so much to reach this place
Every step I couldn’t take
You never left me to decay
As I look into Your eyes
I know today is in my sight
Your ways are all beyond my understanding
There's no reason to wait
Let it go
Release your grip
Be free
Let it go
Release your grip
Be free
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7. |
Aftermath
04:17
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Angry at the world
This is the aftermath
I lit the flame and threw the match
Time after time life takes without giving
My heart has turned to stone
This is how it feels to have nothing left
All of my efforts are now in vain
When all is said and done
I'm broken and bitter and hate my own name
This is how it feels to have nothing left
This is how it feels to hate yourself
God give me strength to find my way back home
I'll take the blame for the way I turned out in the end
I promised change but I stayed the same
This isn't what I meant
Angry at the world
This is the aftermath
I lit the flame and threw the match
Time after time life takes without giving
My heart has turned to stone
Pushing away those who are close to me
Blaming God for all my sufferings
Hating myself so passionately
Loneliness has become therapy
I'll take the blame for the way I turned out in the end
I promised change but I stayed the same
This isn't what I meant
If I could change one thing about myself
I would change the way I see the world
God, all I want is to love who I am
And be content with the way I see the world
I'll burn down every thought
That takes me to that hell
Through the depression and the hatred
I won't rest until I'm standing on the ashes
I'll burn down every thought until I'm standing on the ashes
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8. |
Abandoned
03:59
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Take me where we used to be
This apparition is haunting me
Remove the surface
Remove the surface
Remember we were intimate
Now this pitiful relationship
Is far from perfect
Far from perfect
Why do I run from you?
Why do you hide from me?
You've supplied the clothes on my back and sustenance when I was hungry
Everything that I ever had I know I have because you love me
Understand me when I say
I appreciate all that you’ve done for me
The burden of raising me on your own
Takes you away from this family
Why do I run from you?
Why do you hide from me?
Haunted by adolescence
I struggle to find and know myself
And I can't help but wonder if it's because of you
You've become an apparition
Like a ghost or a part of my imagination
Remove the surface
Remove the surface
Remember we were intimate
Now this pitiful relationship
Is far from perfect
Far from perfect
Father, help me be a better son
I don't expect more from your hands
All I want is your hands in mine
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Deadicated
04:05
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Lead me to my execution
Remove me from myself
May I never go back to the vacant life I had when I was dead
I see the life You have laid before me
Full of sacrifice, full of pain
Help me dismiss the things that hold me back
From imitating the life of a perfect man
I can only embrace my failures
And hold onto Your abounding grace
You never promised the absence of hardship
Dying to myself
Peeling off my flesh
I won't be content until the life I used to live is put to rest
You have called my name
My only choice is to follow You
I'm longing for all that's true
Come resurrect this life up from the earth
This calling to follow You
Will always be a task of endless work
I lay dethroned
Unworthy is my name
You've put a fire in my eyes
But I still need you to light the way
Come light the way
Lead me to my execution
You are the fire in my eyes
How could You every be denied?
Lead me to my execution
I am crawling by Your side
You are the only way to life
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10. |
Mâine
03:03
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What will become of me?
When will my thoughts be free?
How can I trust myself when I'm a slave to uncertainty?
Clarity
Clarity gives way to anxiety
Tomorrow will break my sovereignty
You will become like me
There will be growth in your suffering
My hands are open wide
Won't you see that I'm right here for you?
Here with you
How can I trust You
When I can't see You?
How can I see You
When I don't have faith in You?
Who holds control of my fear?
Who holds the setting sun?
How can I trust You?
How can I see You?
What will become of me?
Trust me
What if all I love is taken away?
Trust me
What if I let go and I am betrayed?
Trust me
Who are you to intervene in my ways?
Trust me
What will become of me in the end?
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